Loves Spirit

What a wonderful feeling, that which of love.
Served on a platter sent from above.
The spirit of being one with another.
Life's little pleasantries, makes your heart flutter.
We sometimes wait a lifetime for such forces to come our way.
But when they arrive, forever will they stay.
Until death is what's used in marriage today.
So we can start all over in a new lifetime.
One love, one spirit, 2 souls, & 2 hearts.
They beat as one from the rising to the setting of the sun.
When you've found your soul mate...yeah you'll understand this one.

Dwindle of Hope

Your like a peaceful inspiration.
You came without any warning.
You captured a heart so torn.
Your the reason I'm reborn.
You never came to stay.
But your here anyway.
You are a rainbow on my rainy days.
You can never be washed away.
Our hearts will forever beat as one.
With you my life has just begun...

Revelations

What's a life without God, but an unpaved rocky road.
A dark desolate highway with twist & turns.
As I lay here with tears rolling down my face.
I don't cry cause of sadness I cry cause this God I serve is revealing all my deep thoughts to me 1 day at a time.
As a follower of the Lord I pray for greatness, a sound mind, & heart for those in my life that have hurt me.
And as a firm believer of God I pray everything he puts in my path is HIS will.
These tears of joy are for my future & the greatness it holds.
They shall wash away the hurt & heal my soul of pain.
The revelations of the Lord cannot be summed up in just one poem.
But a "thank you", everyday of my life for his deliverance.
I hold fast to the graces that he has showered down upon me.
For this road he put me on is no longer desolate & rocky...

What I am...

I'm not a lyricist, I'm not a rapper.
I don't come to judge cause my soul isn't the rapture.
Blended words mixed with soft laughter.
I give to get at times, but I never look for anything after.
Poetry is just a hobby to bring joy, thoughts, or whatever.
I live to please minds, tantalize souls, break molds of things foretold & untold.
A life that wishes to unfold through the thoughts that penetrate my bones.
These things just come to me, best wishes I pass unto thee.
This here life neither waits on you nor we.
Came from nothing with thoughts to become something.
Guided by the greatest thoughts to fill the world with greatness.
Not even the artist in me can paint this...

Past, Present, & ...

You do the right things to end up in the wrong places.
Do all that matters & still get grim faces.
You play by the book yet the book can't save your life.
Things go wrong nothing to fall back on, just anger & strife.
All your life you thought about how great things would be if your reached this point.
Not knowing heartache, & chaos would be revealed before the end.
You pour your heart & soul into life's empty pot of fools gold.
Only for the story to unfold & bills, student loans, & taxes become your pot of gold at the end of life's rainbow.
Life's story we all have it, our up bringing may not always be the cure for it.
But that one moment when we all strive to achieve is when the knowledge of courage, & great power should have been slipped into our Wheaties.
Though we can't turn back time & change the way things were.
We can pave a better future by instilling great self esteem, & knowledge into the future of what we've become.
Better minds, greater tactics, lesser crimes, our future, will you grasp it?

Got

Got this white wine with no cork screw.
Got this great life, but there's no me & you.
Got these great ideas, but can't share em.
Got these nice song, but I can't hear em.
Sooo I just sit back & take a breather.
I've always loved life, but I gotta leave her.
Got this crave for the future, but I can't grasp it.
Got story to tell, but I don't know to who.
Got this poem on my mind so imma write it to you.
Because in this here life your all I got.
Tryna thrive for better, but my excuses won't let me prosper.
So God, remove them burdens so I could go after everything you GOT for me...

Not what your used to

You want me to act like what your used to.
Someone with a slick mouth & a loose goose.
No I can't be that of what you want.
I'm me, not she, or what the world expects me to be.
See you want the baddest chick, mixed with your typical project mix.
I've come a long way & had my past not gone the way God planned many years ago, who would know what you'd get.
But my up bringing is not your typical choir singing, long skirt wearing type of style.
I may seem different to a few; who assume they know me.
See I've seen where the rough road takes you.
I've also seen what it feels like for someone to break you. All through the eyes of being a child.
Always been a child of God, even though I forgot about him for a while.
You want what your used to cause you can't escape yourself & your own insecurities.
But this woman is more than what you may see on the outside.
Growing up as one of many talents I'm one who lacks no pride.
Triumphs, mindful, humble, with every stride...

Bertha

She doesn't speak she just creeps.
Attentive at what she wants whether its fried chicken or your typical ice cream taught.
We all have one of her inside of us.
She's our inner fat girl, kinda like the candy craving child in us.
She's our Bertha, the sugar rush Queen and our friend the food tempter.
No she doesn't fuss when she can't get what she'd like: mash potatoes, candied yams, Mikes & Ikes.
She finds another outlet be it cake, cadbury chocolate, or that pic of strawberry ice cream.
We always find ways to spoil her when the time is right.
Be it on a day off or your typical friday night.
We forget about the consequences that her cravings cause us, til our zipper is about to bust.
So what triggers a "Bertha appearance"?
It's when your guard is down, & your frown is turned upside down & your tummy makes that grumbling sound.
A wonderful scent of fried chicken, beef with broccoli, or just the sight of fudge brownies & smothered cheese cake.
Either of these will send her running.
If she doesn't don't worry she'll appear.
On a day your having that bland salad & the scent of cheddar biscuits is in the air.
But don't worry its all up to you to keep her under control.
Until she smells that Dominoes Pasta Bowl...♥

I've Had the Truth

They say "the truth hurts". They also say the "truth shall set you free".
But what they really mean is except it or else.
See I've had the truth, it came with nice things, smiles, laughter, & lust.
The definition of being truthful according to dictionary dot com is "corresponding with reality".
My reality was one big truth but at times I couldn't adhere to the reality, because all of THIS minus all of THAT should have been more.
Life wasn't equaling up to what could have been, it was what it was.
See I've had the truth in a great friend and thoughts of what could have been...
This isn't your regular sappy poem with a happy ending.
Its a release of anger and ones heart mending.
The freedom that I came away with from the truth was nothing...
Time pressed with time, I believed that a better truth would someday come.
But all I got was the truth plus 1.
Tears never felt so cold on nights so warm.
I've had the truth and it hurt more than a lie.
The truth set me free from loving what I thought was a great guy.

Not Giving Up

Not giving up on love, cause I know someone is out there for me.
Not giving up on love, no matter how hard the game can be.
Not giving up on love, cause the future is much brighter than the present.
Not giving up on love, cause love is riches & I refuse to be a peasant.
Not giving up on love, for love has yet to give up on me.
Not giving up on love, I'm just taking a back seat.
For in due time happy endings, heart rate climbing, sentence finishing, & unexpected ups & downs. Shall all be mine.
Yes I'm not gone give up on something that's the reason I'm here.
Just gon hit the cruise control button cause I know love will soon be near.

Not a care in the world

There was a time in life that I believed everything was alright.
Being a child running to & fro without a care in the world.
Days went by and nights were just a time when crystals glistened in the sky.
Not a care in the world just me, myself, & I.
Things like coloring books, & lollipops put a smile on my face.
A wondrous world with me, & my barrettes in my happy place.
Where the only thing that made me cry was if I got a booboo or got something caught in my eye.
When I was constantly told that everything is gonna be alright. But those were old times & now life is but a new.
We sometimes wish for those days instead of those that turn blue.
Responsibilities and bills take the place of balloons & cartoons.
Love gained, and loved lost is what we all go through.
Some of us still have it easy at times, not many just a few don't have to work for a dime.
Looking back on my childhood wishing I could go back would sure be fine.
Not a care in the world, just a carefree little girl.
Now we have worries, anger, rage, and regret.
A few of life's melodies playing on a record we can't forget.
So what do we do to fill in those places that make us smile?
We let life take it course, love without any remorse, and pray that happiness is at the next mile...

The Growing Process...Walk with me

It's really sad when life throws you curve balls & there are situations you can't control.
When things are said & problems can't be solved because of ones feelings.
Losing friends are the outcome & losing sleep is a part of it.
Trust is a thing we as humans know much about & a few of us know how to hold it dearly.
As I sit back & think of all that goes on in my life.
I sigh at the thought of those that didn't make it this far with me because of trust.
Being truthful hurts, & so does being untrue.
When your at that cross road; to make issues better you either go with the truth or say nothing to keep the peace.
But what happens when the peace has already been tainted?
And ones hopes, & desires have been crushed, all cause one person didn't wanna open pandora's box?
As I write my whoa's & my thrifts.
I cry deep down inside for there are times I wish I had the power to turn, or fast forward time.
But I realize all this was in the plans of a greater good.
A powerful being that looks out for MY trust & MY well being.
Knowing that there will come a time down the road where seeing, believing, & healing is a thing of the past.
And knowing that some things in life weren't meant to last. . .

Challenges

Challenges of life lye in our own thoughts.
Things don't often go the way we expect.
But very few of us give up.
Life is a struggle and we must all persevere.
No one moment is made by mistake.
A road paved out for us though we are unable to visualize it we walk it everyday.
Some of us etch on some go a stray.
But through it all not many lose there way.
This teaches us that we all must keep the faith no matter what the days may hold.
Cause our destiny is already foretold. . .

The Journey

They say that the race isn't for the swift, but for those who can endure.
Through this journey I've endured many obstacles, trails, & days of mirth.
Though I'm still at a point where the Lord isn't ready for the world to really get to know me, I've come to know much about the world.
No I won't sing songs of Whoa is me nor will I entertain my own pity party.
See these days have been dark & grim , and at times light & wonderful.
But for everyday that I was on this spiritual journey seeing the truth, the light, the tip & the top.
I've ALWAYS had to STOP...and gave thanks.
To the precious Lord who is the reason I sit here & tell you all of my journey.
Through camspo3try, no more whoa is me & someone help me. But thank you Lord for keeping me through it all.
See I know life isn't easy but my Jesus told me to STAND TALL in the midst of it all.
I may weep in the Spring, see signs and wonders in the Summer, but joy shall come in the Fall.
My journey of the Lenten season may have come to an end on resurrection Sunday.
But the road is still not fully paved & a new journey has to begin.
Love life, break through my strife, & keep God within.
Those were the words that kept me when the finish line was approaching.
Here I am at the end I did it & barely needed any coaching.
So my journey has ended on a fine Sunday.
Sure wish I knew what Jesus had for me on this blessed Monday.

Unexpected

A moment I froze & dove into a pit of silence.
A time when my mind woundered on rage, heartache, & violence.
A lesson that had to be learned through experience.
A glimpse of what would have come if I didn't practice patience.
This isn't the life I dreamed of as a child.
No! This is far from what I thought down the line shall be.
Calm & collective as it seems.
Taken advantage of at time I never expected.
Aimed for the stars but all I reached the roof of my life.
Is this how things are suppose to turn out?
No. Never cause giving up now would be wrong.
Giving up now means I won't be able to sing my last life song...

How Many

How many people has my prayers saved today?
How many worries have been washed away?
How many tears have subsided?
How many family & friends been undivided?
I prayed for you today cause its what God told me to he sent my way.
How many of your needs have been granted?
How many loves been mended?
How many right minds have been restored?
How many distant souls been reborn?
How many lives been untorn?
I prayed for you today, prayed that great things forever come your way...

This May Work

Emotions, devils temptation, early stages leads to motivation.
Lustful thoughts on a stormy night.
Those are all the things you all like.
A mellow tune cascades the background.
A simple flicker of the candle light shines on her nightgown.
They can feel it coming in the air tonight.
But she's gathered in her thoughts as she sips the devils punch.
Lost in her thoughts of tomorrow as the beat thumps.
Lost in a world of sins, confusions, & unsalted love.
Lost as she makes her final decision he reaches for the golden wrapped glove.
All of this for attention?
Wait...did she mention to him that she wants a world full of untimely bliss, a one true kiss from his lips?
No...cause time is flying & the melody is slowly dying and all she wants to know is it worth it?
This may work she says.
This has to work she says.
As she pauses her television...
The jingling of keys and the door opens and closes shut, it worked years ago cause she's wearing his ring...

Child's Play

Destined Love

Who would have thought we'd make it this far.
Fell in love years ago now here we are toe to toe in this thing called life.
It's been a long time since you caught my eye on that very fine day at the stop light.
Destiny sent you my way, and we're here today on our wedding day.
Looking forward to a life of bliss.
Though everything can't be perfect we'll always seal the deal with a kiss.
I may be the luckiest women in the world to have you in my life.
Always dreamed of the day you'd call me your wife.
Heaven only knows where we can go from here.
Glad to have you in my life my husband, my love, my true blessing from above...

We

We build great memories only to get our hearts broken & attempt to forget them.
We make promises & most of the time break them.
We fall in love only to fall out.
We know nothing of the true meaning of friendship cause we have doubts.
We trust in God & always ask why when things don't go our way.
But we'd probably never give up our life the way Jesus did on the cross that day...
Human feelings, wants, & satisfaction are infinite.
But God love for us is something we are born with.

Just...

Nature soothes me.
Poetry moves me.

Forgotten Love

Took you too seriously.
Never knew you never wanted me.
Adored you unconditionally.
Hated that it wasn't me.
Always thought we could be, in love eternally.
Cry cause we will never be.
But this is how destiny is suppose to be.
So I think no more of the time we shared.
Think no more of those good feelings & thought you cared.
Cover my heart with a iron plate.
So no one can make me feel the way you did.
I shed a memory day by day, and lock all my heartache away.
Smile & tell myself, your beautiful and no one is worth your tears today.

The Right Kinda Love

Fear me cause I am the way that I am.
Run from me cause my beliefs don't suit that of yours, which are only half way.
Wheel out my opinions cause they don't coincide with your own.
Fall in lust with my outer beauty, because my inner mind frame isn't what your about.
Call me a selfish b*tch because you can't take the time to figure me out.
Its not me you want but in all actually its a piece of me that I'm not stupid enough to give.
9665 plus days on this earth & still I have not lived!
Many times I've wept cause I thought it was all my fault.
Not knowing that I serve a purpose here on this here borrowed land.
No need to search no more for someone's borrowed man.
No need to fear what the future holds.
Because I know now that I am a diamond in the rough.
A new image of a man that loves me unconditionally.
For when I cry I know he cries with me, and this strengthens me.
No more gazes out the window of where did my prince go?
Cause now I know he's up above & he'll send someone when he knows I'm good & ready to deal with...The right kind of love.

Bliss

I have a weakness for greatness.
A jones for your fragrance.
Time for just one touch, hope I'm not asking for too much.
Your always on my mind like that back in the day song.
Give me chills down my spine I wonder if you knew this.
Love the way your kiss feel against my soft lips.
Yea I'm feeling myself, & I wanna be feeling you.
Cold nights, lip bites, yea under the stars undressing you.
Temptation, meditation, love filled without hesitation.
Your an addiction & it perplex's my mind that your far too kind.
Generous with your love.
Shh...chill...
I gotta go so I can be the last person you think of....

Letting Go...

Letting go is the hardest.
Sometimes letting go could be the farthest thing from your mind when you heart is set on time.
But time waits for no one nor does it speed up at our cue.
Time won't ever make me stop loving you.
For these feelings are only cover up, by many emotions built over time, shadowed & mustered up.
As I sit here & write of what could have been.
I realize all I've been doing is rationalizing & over analyzing.
Thoughts of what has come to be.
Trying to figure out why you never chose me.
Leaving a void in my heart cause I may never know.
And this is why I can't stick around & why I'm letting you go...

Dejar Ir...

Dejar ir es el más difícil.
A veces, dejar ir puede ser la cosa más lejana de la mente al corazón se fija en el tiempo.
Pero el tiempo no espera por nadie ni acelerar nuestra localización.
El tiempo no me hará dejar de amarte.
Para estos sentimientos son sólo cubrir, por muchas emociones construidas a través del tiempo, la sombra y reunió arriba.
Como me siento aquí y escribo de lo que podría haber sido.
Me doy cuenta de todo lo que he estado haciendo es racionalizar y más análisis.
Los pensamientos de lo que ha llegado a ser.
Tratando de averiguar por qué nunca me has elegido. Dejando un vacío en mi corazón porque yo nunca lo sabremos.
Y es por eso que no puede quedarse y por eso te estoy dejando ir ...

A Helping Quote

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.- Author Unknown

Two as One

I got a weakness for sweetness.
Your tender touch I need it.
Loving kisses completes it.
Time after time I wonder how you became mine.
Breath after breath, sweat after sweat.
Temptation is the thing we can't regret.
Inseparable as we are, we light up the lives of each other.
Bring a smile to the faces of one another.
Nothing can come between the love we both give.
Love lifted us up & now we both live.
Completing, leading, defeating all the odds.
You & I were meant to be.
Heaven set our souls free.
So they both found each other.
A life time forever spent, Lord knows we were heaven sent.
Heaven knows we can't wait.
For the day we found our soul mate...

Public Display

Public displays of love & affection.
Public displays cancels out rejection.
Tell me you love me so the heavens can hear.
Matter of fact show me.
Make my heart flutter, knees buckling, palms sweat.
Hug me & hold me close, grasp my lower back as the on lookers show there opinions.
We are their center of attention.
A giggle here, a giggle there mire child's play under the gazes of others.
Our love warms the hearts of some, & disturbs the souls of others.
We enjoy our time together & wallow in the moment.
Love radiates through our pours. And lust is our torment.
This is our public display, sad but things won't always be this way...

No Fears No Tears

For the Moment

Friendly Flow

Ghost writer never.
Friendly & very clever.
He's a friend of mine, met him online cool dude.
Got a jewel in his back pocket.
This rap game he's bout to lock it.
Clicked with him through a trending topic.
He's just my friend so all you concerned heads ya'll can stop it.
My po3trys like a rap flow, yea but I'm not a fan of rap though.
I'm a fan of his flow his rhymes they sick though!

Our God

The truth, the light.
The lamb, the love.
The life, & the light that which shines from above.
The giver, the healer.
Our God, our holy redeemer.
Salvation we ask, for those things we can't grasp.
Honor thy name. Never place any blame.
The reason we go on each day.
Give & blessings come our way.
Pray for we have our glimmer of hope.
He is our best friend, our father, our protector whom providers the nectar.
For that of our birds which flies through his skies.
Our God whom allows us to survive.
Our God who we can't see, but still we know he's alive...

One Day

Escape to this meditate to this.
Gonna make a living one day to this.
Life ain't easy but with my words I make it seem breezy.
I just wanna live a life without sadness, & madness.
When did everything end up like this?
I feel lifeless, tired of all this.
But I know if I give up I will never know of the great ending to this.
Cry cause I dream of it.
My self esteem reeks of it.
I know there will be better days, brighter days.
Lighter days when my world doesn't feel so heavy.
I know my day is coming are you all ready?

This is just...

I live this life to the fullest.
Walk through the heartache & pain like I'm dodging bullets.
No one knows what my mind goes through on a daily basis.
People don't see the pain unless they're faced with it.
Love every moment, grasp every dream.
Make sure you & Jesus are on the same team.
Scream when your ecstatic, scream when your mad.
Being humble at the most inopportune times shall make Jehovah glad.
These are my thoughts, mottos, & ways of life.
I go by them day by day without strife.
Blessed to be me, completely, neatly tied in this bow of life.
Wrapped with the garments of the blood of Jesus.
This is just....who I am!